Saturday 8 November 2014

Looking at the light

                                                     I have been looking at the darkness...
                                                     for a while now.

 I mean, when I start to paint.

I like to start by dividing the canvass... with the use of two, sometimes three colours. I work for about an hour, mostly feeling, but during my brief pauses balancing things up with the use of logic. And I have used earth and dark tones for this, following the traditional recipe.

Once the hour is up... I gaze into the darkness I have created.... my instinct and fantasy freely interpreting and providing me images I can pick from in order to proceed. Its the most interesting part of creation... not knowing what you are going to do... and having a million options in front of you.

In Life, this seems to scare us. I guess it is because when we don´t know what to do... we tend to forget that we have a million options ahead to choose from. Instead of savouring the moment... we go numb... and our body and mind simply paralize.

Today... I decided to break Tradition!
              I started of with one bright colour... simply because when I looked into the can where it is kept... I noticed it was drying up. Is this what happens in life too???? Can all the bright and colourful options ahead of us start drying up.... if we just stare into the darkness????


   Tradition is meant to be there, as a guide and teacher... something to look back upon and learn from... but NEVER to hold us back. As soon as it starts working as an anchor.... we must do something about it... I am certain we are not meant to stand still > even though that usually is the safest and easiest way to go about our lives.

So I am now going to stare into the light... and see what happens to my painting. A first gaze at what I have done already filled me with positive energy...  
 
                                          my first options are there, bright and inviting
                                         now I just need to pick
                                          and proceed.... into the light!

It could possibly become a young boy.... 

asleep on his desk from too much study...
 It is certainly something I have pondered on.
Like... why do we accept to live in a society that is built up around productivity - with gains for the few! Study, study, study.... and then work, work... WORK. We are taught and brought up with the notion that rest is something to be earned by sweat,
                                            fun something to do on holidays....
 when really ALL days are holly... and life is meant to be savoured and enjoyed. BURN OUT is a new disease, little talked about... but worryingly lethal and widespread.... now also amongst the very young. Something worthwhile thinking about.

It could also be about a couple sleeping together,

Their heads almost like one, hands still feeling each others warmth.
A reminder of how important physical contact is for well being. A call for us to learn the importance of touching and embracing each other... letting our friends and family feel our warmth, our love. I think people tend to forget about that.... in their stress, in their hurry. they live together but slowly drift appart... eachone in their own space... same house... yet still so far appart.


Or it could simply become a minotaur,
  resting at midday after a good lunch, under the shade of a tree.
taking a siesta. Just a fun image... with no critique behind it. Like Matisse used to say, a piece, that when you look at it - is restful as a good sofa. 

THAT, is definitely my view, of what art needs to be today!!!! 
No controversy, no irritation...(there is enough of that in our hectic lives)
... but  plain comfort and love.  

And so I play... in the light. For a couple of days the minotaur is worked on... warm relaxing siesta taking over the feeling of my ateliejé....
yet Picasso's mysterious woman haunts me... and slowly starts to creep back into the minotaurs day dream... I struggle with the combination...
I obsess...
 I HAVE TO MAKE IT WORK!!!!

                                                   fortunately Inda knows how to play...
                                                                in the light....

  She points me in the right direction...
Don´t force things in life! Go... with the flow. Light, feeling, let things come to you....
be curious and grab to what comes along... play with this
                                                                           play with that - dont obsess!!!!

                         so, for a while.... I play with another mysterious woman that I believe to be,
                                     amazingly beautiful....
                                                       
                                          Also about rest... this one at night. I simply love
                                        the way she seems to be floating in the air... or under water...

Picasso has the talent of saying so much, with so little. 

I move along... a bit slowed down by a flu...
     my powers gone.I know what I want... but don´t have the strength to go for it. I rest. And wait. We should deffinitely be thankfull for our health!


Today I woke up, not in prime condition yet... but better...
                                                                    ready to play!
                                          Mystery You... I´m coming to get you!!!!! 

Easier... when not attached.... not afraid. I let my
playful me free....
and she is there!

probably not ready yet....
    but enough... for NOW....  

because I have to move on and play
                                                       now that I am feeling stronger!

                            HAPPY FATHERS day... I say...
                                                           and start yet another PICASSO =D

2 comments:

  1. Thank you once again, love the way you share your process :)
    -Pete

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  2. =) =) =) thnx for your loving! ;)

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